Advice on Job Search/Dead End Job Burnout and how to Cope

Hi all. I (25 F) have been looking for a job since June of last year after an incident with bullies in management forced me to quit a starter job that I loved. I’ve been looking for jobs as a copywriter, and I’m founding some decent success with some super part time gigs and freelance work remotely that got my foot in the door. But my main source of income continues to be waitressing. My first starter job didn’t pay great, so I picked up the gig at the same busy chain restaurant my fiancée and his entire family and friend group work at, also as servers. I’m neurodivergent and not great with loud noises, but I’m fantastic at masking and found the work rewarding and when it was just cash for fun stuff 2-3 days a week. Then my job was lost and suddenly serving became my ONLY source of income. Nights became slow at the restaurant and people started tipping. Because the money was as inconsistent as the scheduling, I blew through what little savings I had trying to pay my rent, utilities, and grocery bills. Not to mention trying to find the cash to pay for a wedding. All the while I’m applying to full time jobs. 5 a day on the low end. 20-25 a day on the high end. My inbox is flooding with rejection letters, some don’t even have my name on them. I have 3 years of experience. A bachelors degree. Tangible results. Resumes and cover letters that are tailored to every job I apply to run through the same AI they used to sort through resumes to make sure my keywords match. And not a soul is biting. All the while what used to be joy when I serve has slowly festered into resentment. It was easy to keep down at first. My friends and his family are all there, and they’re so wonderful that it’s not a problem. But as time goes on, and money gets tighter, and more effort is having to be put into the mask that keeps a roof over my head, I know I’m burning out quick. I’m no stranger to burnout. I was burnt out my entire last 2 years at college during COVID. I didn’t even know it was what I was feeling until I went to a therapist for depressive and anxious feelings I wasn’t used to having. She helped me work through my feelings and figure out mechanisms to cope until school was over. And when I was working my starter job in my field, I never felt burnt out because I loved my work. But I don’t love serving. And the job hunt is relentless. Every time I think about having to go in and spend 6 hours in a loud restaurant with rude customers I start getting that same feeling of dread in my chest where I can’t breathe. I feel like a trapped animal. I cry in my car before I go in. Everything about the job just annoys me. And the minutes, which used to just fly by, inch by. But unlike school, where the end to my burnout was in sight, I feel like mine is made worse by the fact that without my serving job, I’d literally be on the streets. And to make matters worse, my fiancée just landed a high paying gig in his field after just a month of searching. I’m thrilled for him, but it certainly feels like a gut punch Sorry for the rant, but I just didn’t know where else to go. My fiancée (25 M) is a natural extrovert and said simply changing my attitude will make the burnout and annoyance disappear. That I just need to keep applying to jobs and hope for the best. But these feelings feel completely out of my control. When I feel them, no matter what, I can’t rein them in. I feel just so lost and trapped, even though I know I’m lucky to have any job at all.

(TLDR) I’m sure many of you are burnt out by temporary jobs that became not so temporary and the job search. How do you cope? Should I seek out therapy again since these feelings are affecting my work performance? How to do I remain hopeful? Any advice or kind words would be helpful. Thank you in advance.